Chrissy Teigen has opened up to her Instagram followers about how she struggled to accept the loss of her third child, Jack, on Sunday.
The 35-year-old model announced the heartbreaking news that she had lost her son Jack when he was 20 weeks in office due to multiple complications in October last year.
Chrissy, who decided to leave a total of a month after her loss, admitted she “has not prosecuted” her baby’s death and no longer has alcohol to “numb the pain.”
Reflection: Chrissy Teigen has opened up to her Instagram followers about how she struggled to accept the loss of her third child, Jack, on Sunday (pictured with her husband John Legend)
In a photo accompanying the candid post, Chrissy reunited with her husband John Legend, 42, while laughing at a booth at New York’s Franks restaurant.
Chrissy remembered how she and John they’ve been restaurant patrons for “maybe 13, 14 years,” as they “used to live on a couple of streets” in the Big Apple.
During the post, he also detailed his complicated relationship with alcohol during this period of his life: “I would sit there with my multiple double vodka soft drinks and watch the day alone (this is not a braggart, as I was basically an alcoholic who worked) then I bought hats that I didn’t like or needed, ”he wrote.
“Deep pain”: the model announced the heartbreaking news that she had lost her son Jack when he was 20 weeks in office due to multiple complications in October last year
Chrissy continued: ‘[I’ve] just remembering a lot of New York lately, when things were simple, thinking about everything I’ve done and lived not only this year, but in my life.
She admitted, “I’m slightly down lately. It started when I thought about the title of my book and wrote” my third baby is here !! “, as in the cookbook, and I realized that my third baby he will never be here.
“Then I realized I threw myself into the book for not thinking about the real third baby. I really don’t feel like I’ve completely processed the jack and now that I don’t have the alcohol to put him to sleep, things are just .. there, waiting for me to be recognized.
‘I guess what I’m saying here is that life is so complicated. and get the lasagna ??? wow this was a roller coaster !!!!! ‘
Chrissy recently said that writing her third cookbook Cravings “literally saved her” and helped her cope with the loss.
“Things are just waiting to be recognized”: Chrissy revealed that she had realized that she had put her energy into writing her third cookbook and that she had not fully prosecuted the tragic loss of baby Jack
But reflecting on the process this weekend, he revealed: “I realized I was throwing myself into the book for not thinking about the real third baby. I don’t really feel like I’ve completely processed the jack and now that I don’t have the alcohol to put him to sleep, things are just … there, waiting for me to be recognized.
“I guess what I’m saying here is that life is so complicated,” Chrissy admitted.
Chrissy announced the heartbreaking loss of her third child on Instagram in October last year, and told her followers at the time that she had “the kind of deep pain we only heard about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before”.
He explained: “We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite the bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough. ‘
“We never decide the names of our babies until the last possible moment after they are born, just before they leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started calling this boy from the womb Jack. So it will always be Jack for us. Jack worked so hard to be part of our little family, and he will be forever, “he lamented.
Forever Jack: Chrissy announced the heartbreaking loss of her third child on Instagram telling her followers she had “the kind of deep pain you only heard about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before.”
Chrissy, who has children Luna, four, and Miles, two, announced their decision to quit alcohol just a month later.
She told her fans at the time, “I had just finished making a ** mine in front of people (I’m still embarrassed), tired of drinking the day and feeling like ** for 6 years , not being able to sleep.
Chrissy has been open about her relationship with alcohol in the past. In a 2017 interview with Cosmopolitan, he said, “I was, in white, just drinking too much.
“I got used to being made up and made up and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would take another before the awards ceremony … And then a lot of awards.
She continued, “And then I felt bad for making a ** mine for people I really respected.
‘And that feeling, there’s nothing like it. You feel horrible. It’s not a good look for me, for John, for anyone.
Family: Chrissy, who has children Luna, four, and Miles, two, with John was total in November last year, a month after her tragic loss.