Demi Lovato says she was sexually assaulted and “left for dead” by the trader who handed her a dangerous cocktail of heroin and other drugs the night she suffered an almost fatal overdose three years ago.
The “Heart Attack” singer recalls how she was forced to face what happened when she woke up in the hospital after the incident and doctors asked her if she had had consensual sex.
“I remembered him lying on top of me, so I said ‘yes,'” Lovato says in his YouTube docuseries, “Dancing with the Devil.”
He comments that he soon realized, however, that due to his highly intoxicated state on the night of the near-July 2018 tragedy, he had not been in a position to accept sex.
It wasn’t until maybe a month after my overdose that I realized, ‘Hey, you weren’t in any mood to make a consensual decision,’ ”he recalls.“ That kind of trauma doesn’t go away overnight. The other”.
Lovato, 28, admits that after his overdose he relapsed again.
“I wish I could say that the last night I touched heroin was the night of my overdose, but it wasn’t,” he says, explaining that he wanted to regain power from his drug dealer, whom he didn’t . name, after he allegedly assaulted her.
“I wanted to rewrite his option to rape me,” he explains. “I wanted it to be my choice now, and I also had something I wanted, which was drugs. I ended up getting high.
As part of a misguided plan to regain “power” after a week of intensive trauma withdrawal, she even called the dealer who attacked her and told her, “I’m going to get you.”
Lovato says he regretted doing so, as he realized that after his relapse, he had hit rock bottom.
“I thought,‘ How did I take the same medications that put me in the hospital? “I was mortified by my decisions.”
Now sober from the drugs that put her in the hospital, Lovato says in the docuseries (and in a cover story of Elle’s March issue), she’s not completely limited to marijuana or alcohol.
“I’ve learned that closing the door on things makes me want to open the door even more,” he says. “I know I’m done with the things that will kill me … but I wish I could get some relief maybe because of the weeds or something, right?”